The time in my holiday ...

Something that cant be lost in my mind ...
just don wnt to lost that happy and sad feeling ...
She clear all the msg she clear all the memory ...
don know want can i do to get her ...
is it i have to really clear her from my mind ...
i hide my blog i hide the msg from her ...
she will never see what i have send to her ...
our love lostin a sudden ...
so fast and so hurt ...
crying makeme feel more sad ...
i hate crying ...
something that i really cant hide from her is my feeling ...
i still very lopve her ...
everytime watching the phone waiting for nonsense ...
really wish to acc her but ...
sometimes i don understand why she sad ...
my 3th mei mei having the case like mind ...
is it she also feel like my mei mei ...
is it she feel very tong ku ...
is my fault can help her ...
i understand my useless ...
i understand i too poor ...
i understand i stupid ...

just want to tell her that i really love her ...
i make the 1st promise and a lot of promise to her ...
i'll keep the promise forever ...
anytime u need me i'll be in ur side ...
don care how u hurt me ...
don care how u hate ...
i not stupid in love ...
i just want to love one ppl forever ...
no regret ...

That day i go out alone to qb buy present for her ...
feel very excited ...
1st time do so crazy thing ...
luckily got my mei mei acc me if not sure get lost at there ...
i ask my mei mei about her house ...
finally know how to go her house ... Happy ...
next day went to her house ...
but at the end i just know the round about so ...
sad cant see her house ...
want to walk up the hill but i don have time ...
when give her the present i feel happy ...
but have some weird feeling disturd me ...
she look still like before ...
still very cute ...

The next day she tell me my thx for so care about her ...
actually i want to tell her something but not sure she like or not ...
so i just cancel it ...

finally i bankrap le ...
cant msg her anymore ...
feel very very very sad at that day ...
don know when i can msg her again ...
this whole holiday she reply me very cold ...
i cant get any friend feeling there ...
i scared i'll lost her ...
i try my best do wat i can ...
just keep trying ...
wishing for something impossible ...

She tell me she drink 5 cups of coffee ...
wah that really too much le ...
don know what her feel at that time ...
sure very hard to 'brief'(bad eng^^) ...
don know how she pass that night ...
heart feeling pain but my mouth answer her wrong thing ...
just smile to her ...
want to show her that i not care her anymore ...
but at last i cant ...
just dreaming there and watching the ppl that having motor lesen test ...
long time din drive motor le ...
i hurt my hand ...
next few day i just realize that botgh of my shoulder 'change skin'(bad eng^^) ...
hahax because i so stupid when go qb that day wear singlet ...
hahax ... stupid xexon ...

thinking if i should keep calling her little monster ...
did she really forget me le ...
did she forget our loove le ...
the msg she reply me show that no ...
little monster i cant c you again ...
i cant see u kidding with me again ...
i cant hear u telling me about ur sad and happy story again ...
so sad ...
cant be with u ...
wish can live in ur house everyday watching you ...

hate myself ...
hate my life ...
hate me so useless ...
cant make you smile again ...
cant help you anything ...

29/4/2009 thev important day for me ...
the last day for us to see each other le ba ...
the birthday of you ...
what is your wish ...
remember our new year wish ...
is that just a wish ???

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Still want to say big monster love little monster forever ...