Painful day

Haizzz ....
Today my hand pain pain pain ...
The tool half rosak one ...
Us e so much strength to pump the glue ...
So many nut nit to cover with the glue ...
Zzz ...
The work a bit hard lo ...
After reach home whole body tired and pain ...
No energy at all ...
Last nitez dream her again leh ...
long time in dream le hahax ...
Last time when exam time dream her about one week leh ...
So swt ...
Never dream like that besides than my xgf before de leh ...
Luckily i never think she will become my gf de ...
So i think it just normal dream ba hahax ...
Today luckily got her cheer me up lo ...
If not really no mood working already ...
Anyway thx mei mei oo ...

^^

Tired tired day

=.=
This few days i very tired lo ...
Although just two days but my body seem like work for one week already ...
Luckily din feel pain yet ...
If not cham ...
One week seven days also have to work ...
Zzz ...
The boss is my relative so it.s ok la ...
The work really need a lot of energy and strength ...
All metal thing ...
emm i think soon will have glasses kok ...
Zzz ...
Wah so tong ku ...
But is better than stay at house do nothing ...

This two days i cant sleep late already ...
So tired and have to wake up at 6 something ...
Monday untl friday work until 10pm leh ...
Normally is 5.30 pm la ... But there is a lot of thing have to do so OT until 10 pm ... =.=
When back home ...
Wah damn tired ...
Just online a while then need to fast fast sleep again ...
Working is like that ...
Long time din like that le ...
Hope i'll fast fast xi guan this style of life la ...

^^

Happy day ^^

Today after wake up ...
Feel very panic lo ...
Hahax ... scare i will fail my motor test ...
Scare the TITI !!!!
After take my number i feel more panic ...
Sit at there my place seem like earthquake leh ...
Hahax my leg cant stop shaking ...
At last i start to count 1 to 100 ...
Finally feel better le so just can pass the test ...
If not cham le i sure scare until jatuh from the titi ...

Finally reload my phone ...
Find people to chat today ...
But a lot ignoring me leh ...
So gai ...
My mei mei having fever this few day ...
Hope she will recover faster la ...

Tomorrow i have to work in my relative shop le ...
Half happy half sad ...
Hahax so confusing ...
But working is better than stay at home do nothing ...

Today i hear a nice nice song ooo ...
Very nice ... '我听见有人叫你宝贝'
Like the song so much ... the tone very nice ...
This few day saw emily xbf msn picture so geli and funny lo ...
The hair style he cut wah terrible ...
Hahax ... Hope you all know i say who la ^^

Today i'm not so sad le ...
Just sometimes think about love ...
But is ok la i have to learn from that experience ...
Thanks to the fren and people that leave comment in my blog ...
I'll be strong de ...
Thanks so much ^^

Oya maybe i'll try write some lyrics leh ...
Hahax hope it'll be nice la ...
I like music so much ...
It's part of my life ^^

Lonely

Just a sad sad day ...
I'm still down ...
Not because of her ...
But sad because i don understand why i'll get hurt so easily ...
Maybe i'm just too weak for being a good bf ...
But that's ok ...
This life is not only have love ...
I still have many friends, mei mei, didi. jie jie ...
Hahax ...
They all treat me not bad also ...
But sometime they ignore me also ley ...
Today both mei mei chat until half way then don want bother me le ...
Sad ...
Sometime i really hope got someone can accompany me when i really very sad ...
Just chat with me feel word also can ...
At least i can feel that i'm not alone ...
Tomorrow is my motor test le ...
So panic ...
Scare will fail because of the titi lo ...
Zzzz ...
Anyway thx for the friends who accompany me and console me today ...
Wish u all happy 520 day ^^
I love my friends so much ...

The final hurt ...

Today is just a bad day in my life ...
Or can say terrible day in my life ...
Everything never change in my fated ...
Every time is the same ending ...
Already bored of this all of thing ...
I have been triple kill by three of the people that i love most ...
Hahax ... And i trust most ...
Never mind that is my fated although i don believe fated at all ...
Never mind it just never mind ...

1st one who end up everything without telling anything ...
In that night ...
I cant stop calling the number ...
It just end up with the doo doo sound ...
At the other day i just know she have new guy already ...
Never mind Never mind at all ...

2nd one who end up in an unknown situation ...
I'm totally don know what she feel and what hurt her ...
Never mind i know she lost feeling but i din give up for that ...
Still at the end i don like to hurt a girl that i really love ...
Never mind Never mind so i just let her go ...
Anyway i already know who will be her next bf ...
Hahax I'm just a stupid guy ...

3rd one ...
Hahahax the most cruel one ...
Everything end up with no sound no call not even one msg from her ...
Why should I cry for since she have been so cruel to me ...
Every msg i send to her there is no reply ...
Why why why ...
Why you sms me today ...
Why you ask me 'why i din sms you so long?'
That is no point at all ...
Is you din reply me 1st ...
Maybe i don very love you ...
But do you know I'm really worry about you ???
And you end up with telling me you already have new bf !!!
What are you thinking ???
Killing my heart ???
Making me crazy ???
What the fuck you ...
Shit i just cant stop crying ...
I know I'm weak but that does not mean you cant hurt me whatever you want ...
I'm have my own feeling I have my own way of love ...
It just too painful ...
Maybe i just have to listen to my friend ...
That all the girl is just playing with me ...
Why should i love them with my true love ...
There is no point at all ...

I'm hurt enough ...
I'm just a loser in love ...
Enough for that all ...
I'm not ging to trust any gal easily ...
They all are so cruel ...
Or maybe is my luck too bad ...
That just my fault ...
Everything that i know not enough to love anyone ...
And not suit for anyone to love me ...
Enough I'm tired for now ...
Maybe i cant hate anyone ...
But i just want to be alone just like before ...
That all ...
I'm not going to run away just like that ...
Maybe I just take it as an experience that not everything i should trust easily ...
My wound wont recover ...
Just let it bleeding ...
That will remind me all of my failure ...
One day just one day i'll find the one who really love me ...
Or maybe i'll be the most cruel guy in the world...
Who play all the girl feeling ...
Hahax ... I know i wont be able to hurt anyone ...
That is me i scare to hurt someone ...
I'm scare to be alone ...
But why why all the thing end up with the sadness ...
With hurting my heart ...
I cant blame who ...
I just need to learn friom the past ...
I just need to learn to be strong ...
I trust all people have their good heart but that wrong ...
They have bad heart also ...
Sometime evil is greater than kind ...
Nothing i can say ...
No one i can trust ...
just let it to be the ned of this blog ...
My feeling is so hurt and down ...
Final love in my heart ...

My feeling going down

Today my exam result out already ...
A scary day for a lot of student ...
But for me seem like nothing at all ...
I din even feel sad when looking at my result ...
Coz i know no matter how i still need to work ...
That is reality and i have to face it by myself ...
Today my feeling is too deep and too hard to understand ...
Somehow i still the hardest man who cant even understand by everyone ...
Or can say that nobody really understand anyone fully ...
Everyone have their secret thing that cant be tell ...
That is normal ...
But why some people still think in negatively that no one can understand his or her ...
Such a strange thinking ...
if you can share with someone about your everything that should be the friend or lover or relative that really trust the most ...
My feeling going strange ...
My heart sink into the bottom of sea ...
Just like a small stone or cell that cant be see by everyone ...
just alone there ...
Helpless and hopeless ...

Bleeding

Bleeding ...
Does it really hurt ???
When there is someone who you love hurt you ...

What is bleeding definition ...
Is that bleeding will make you die ???
Is that scary thing or happy thing ???
How is your feeling when you are bleeding seriously ???
Try to stop bleeding ... Why Why you want to stop bleeding ???
Why you don want let the blood flow out from your body ???
Why you don want to die ???
There so many question to be ask ...
And there are so many answer for each question ...

Blood ...
What is blood ???
Red in color ???
Or black , green , purple , yellow ???
Why must we have blood ???
Why must we evolve ???
Do you scare seeing the blood flowing out from your body ???
Maybe yes maybe no ...
Depends to your thinking ...

What is evolution ???
Why must the evolution keep going ???
If someday it stop, is that will be our end ???
Maybe yes maybe no ...

Strange ...
This world is so strange ...
All the living thing are so unique ...
Have so many forms ...
And it keeping evolving to other form ...
Become bigger size or become smaller size ...
Become even stronger or become even smarter ...
All the keep changing ...
That no time for resting ...

Time is cold blood ...
No one can stop it ...
No one can kill it ...
It is so powerful ..
And it is invisible ...

Weird weird day

Weird weird day ...
Suddenly miss her so much ...
Still no contact maybe it'll be the end between us ...
I let her go not because i scare ...
I not sure i really love her or not ...
I don know i really want her or not ...
But my heart tell me i don love her and just want her become my mei mei only ...
I'm blur ... I already tell her that i not love her like she love me ...
Maybe just let her choose what is the ending she want ...

Early morning wake up because her phone again ...
Hahax ... She always take a good timing d ...
Always call me when i just wake up ...
Listening her story her sadness ...
It seem like become normal thing between us ...
But sometimes the chat let me feel bored ...
Because every time also talk about love ...
But at least i can help her a bit by listening her story and try to help her solving problem ...

Blur bluring ...
Don know what am i writing ...
Just know my mood not so good today ...
A bit sad and a bit lost ...
Emm ...
Singing again ...
Singing can make me feel happy can make me sad also ...
But it a good way for me to sing out all my thing ...
Every word every tone telling about my thinking and feeling ...
Don know when i start to have this kind of habit ...
Maybe start from my 1st xgf ba ...
Sometimes don want to keep everything in my heart so i just sing out ...
I like to create my own lyric have my feeling there ...
Sometime is so nice ...
But just lazy to write it out ...
Hahax hate to type Chinese word ...

Writing nonsense again ...
Don know what actually i write ...
maybe because i'm too blur ...
Hahax ...
Anyway thanks for viewing my blog and leaving the comment there ... ^^

Happy and Sad day

Hihi
Is time i blogging again ...
Just now chat with her and her bf ...
Hahax a bit surprise that i'll chat with her bf d ...
actually i not dislike her bf la ...
Just sometime feel weird if chat with my xgf d bf lo ...
Hahax ...
I know he is a good guy so add oil to him also la...
One thing i dislike about him is that he always say sorry to me ...
No nit to say sorry so many time la ...
My mei mei thx me about accompany her during her sad time leh ...
Happy happy ...
Finally know she also treat me good d ..
Hahax ...
Tonitez so busy...
so many conversation to chat ...
Plenty of friends inside the there ...
making me busy and busy only ...
But lazy to talk so watching they chat only ...
Hahax ...
Just now i heard a disc that talk about working attitude er ...
Really very nice ooo ...
teach me so many thing ...
U know our intelligence just take 15%of our work only the most important is our attitude leh ...
Must be confident to yourself ...
Must be friendly ...
don too lonely ...
Hahax just like me ...
But i'm trying to be more confident to talk with all friends ...
Emm just like that la ...
Seem nothing special d ....
OOO almost forget i pass my ujian kelayakan ...
Hahax ... can go for P lesen test d...
Hahahax ...
Thanks for reading ... ^^

I'm back again ^^
Hehex is long time i don want to blogging ...
Scare go watch some people blog ...
Hahax ...
But now i'm ok le but still wont read any blog except my mei mei ...
Hehex ...
This month i finish my school life le ...
Everthing end without any special or happiness ...
But nevermind d ...
Everything still have to keep going don care sad or happy ...
I'll working for few years d ...
A bit out of my planning ...
Hahax ...
But working quiet fun and good for me also ...
I'm too ben le so must learn from working ...
Hahax ...
My mei mei now ok back d so happy to see her better again ...
hope she still like before so noisy hahahax ...
Everthing that have start sure have the ending ...
I wont sad like before already ...
I can talk with her like talking with friend ...
Althought the memory still there but i wont lost my control anymore ...
Something that i cant get that mean not my thing i shouldn't forcing who anymore ....
Look to my future ...
I have many thing not yet do many plan that i have plan ...
From the begining of my live until now d ...
I'm going to be stronger ...
I'm going to be better ...
I wont lose to you all again ...
I'll try to find myself back d ...
Keep focusing in my nice nice dream ...
One day i going to save the earth ...
One day i going to make all people know they are earth murderer ...
I cant change people mind so easily but i just hope they regret to everything simple thing that they do to kill this earth ...
Including me hehex ...
I have so little to save the earth but i wont give up ...
That my dream my way no matter what i just want to keep it ...
Just hope that i wont go in the wrong way ...
When watching people or friend throwing the rubbish i feel so sad ...
Why just a light rubbish you also cant keep it and throw it in rubbish bin ...
Just a littlework there ...
Not much ...
It is better that you carrying those heavy handbag or wearing heavy clothes ...
Sad to see all this thing ...
Ok la lazy type d ...
Hehex ...
Hope got people read it la ...
Hahax ...
End my blog with happy mood hehex ...
Wish you all good luck and thanks ...

^^

4-3-2009

爱情。。。
是难以忘记的东西吗。。。
回忆。。。
能一点一滴的消除吗。。。
曾经爱着你的心会消失吗。。。

谁能告诉我这一切。。。
谁能为折磨着的心灵说一句安慰的话。。。
痛苦永远的在我身上围绕着。。。
冷漠是谁给我的感觉。。。
结束是那美好的回忆吗。。。
友情淹没了我们彼此的爱情吗。。。
你为何伤心呢。。。
我为何掉泪呢。。。
爱为何痛苦呢。。。

不明白。。。
不明白。。。
该伤心吗。。。
该放弃吗。。。

我的心。。。
一直告诉我要坚强。。。
女人不喜欢软弱的男人。。。
勇敢的表现出来。。。
以纯正的心深深的爱着她。。。
永不后悔。。。
永不放弃。。。
那是值得的。。。
我爱你。。。

今天她没有课。。。
所以没能看到她。。。
开学三天了。。。
没见到她的脸。。。
好悲哀。。。

今天陪我妹妹去了他的家。。。
她硬硬逼我叫他下来。。。
结果没办法咯。。。
去叫了他。。。
他竟然又伤了我妹妹的心。。。
我听得到她的哭泣声。。。
她让我也变得伤心了。。。
不懂我该安慰她什么。。。
我和她的情况是差不多的。。。

踏过学校的前面。。。
让我想起了我和“她” 之前的回忆。。。
多么快乐和幸福的。。。
泪水毫不留情的掉下了。。。
太没出息了吧。。。
坚决的把它停下了。。。

天空不下雨吗，，，
我累了吗。。。
不想停下脚步。。。
我永远为你而走下去。。。

我一定一定要比任何人强。。。

我爱你 Little Monster …
^^

The time in my holiday ...

Something that cant be lost in my mind ...
just don wnt to lost that happy and sad feeling ...
She clear all the msg she clear all the memory ...
don know want can i do to get her ...
is it i have to really clear her from my mind ...
i hide my blog i hide the msg from her ...
she will never see what i have send to her ...
our love lostin a sudden ...
so fast and so hurt ...
crying makeme feel more sad ...
i hate crying ...
something that i really cant hide from her is my feeling ...
i still very lopve her ...
everytime watching the phone waiting for nonsense ...
really wish to acc her but ...
sometimes i don understand why she sad ...
my 3th mei mei having the case like mind ...
is it she also feel like my mei mei ...
is it she feel very tong ku ...
is my fault can help her ...
i understand my useless ...
i understand i too poor ...
i understand i stupid ...

just want to tell her that i really love her ...
i make the 1st promise and a lot of promise to her ...
i'll keep the promise forever ...
anytime u need me i'll be in ur side ...
don care how u hurt me ...
don care how u hate ...
i not stupid in love ...
i just want to love one ppl forever ...
no regret ...

That day i go out alone to qb buy present for her ...
feel very excited ...
1st time do so crazy thing ...
luckily got my mei mei acc me if not sure get lost at there ...
i ask my mei mei about her house ...
finally know how to go her house ... Happy ...
next day went to her house ...
but at the end i just know the round about so ...
sad cant see her house ...
want to walk up the hill but i don have time ...
when give her the present i feel happy ...
but have some weird feeling disturd me ...
she look still like before ...
still very cute ...

The next day she tell me my thx for so care about her ...
actually i want to tell her something but not sure she like or not ...
so i just cancel it ...

finally i bankrap le ...
cant msg her anymore ...
feel very very very sad at that day ...
don know when i can msg her again ...
this whole holiday she reply me very cold ...
i cant get any friend feeling there ...
i scared i'll lost her ...
i try my best do wat i can ...
just keep trying ...
wishing for something impossible ...

She tell me she drink 5 cups of coffee ...
wah that really too much le ...
don know what her feel at that time ...
sure very hard to 'brief'(bad eng^^) ...
don know how she pass that night ...
heart feeling pain but my mouth answer her wrong thing ...
just smile to her ...
want to show her that i not care her anymore ...
but at last i cant ...
just dreaming there and watching the ppl that having motor lesen test ...
long time din drive motor le ...
i hurt my hand ...
next few day i just realize that botgh of my shoulder 'change skin'(bad eng^^) ...
hahax because i so stupid when go qb that day wear singlet ...
hahax ... stupid xexon ...

thinking if i should keep calling her little monster ...
did she really forget me le ...
did she forget our loove le ...
the msg she reply me show that no ...
little monster i cant c you again ...
i cant see u kidding with me again ...
i cant hear u telling me about ur sad and happy story again ...
so sad ...
cant be with u ...
wish can live in ur house everyday watching you ...

hate myself ...
hate my life ...
hate me so useless ...
cant make you smile again ...
cant help you anything ...

29/4/2009 thev important day for me ...
the last day for us to see each other le ba ...
the birthday of you ...
what is your wish ...
remember our new year wish ...
is that just a wish ???

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Still want to say big monster love little monster forever ...