The final hurt ...

Today is just a bad day in my life ...
Or can say terrible day in my life ...
Everything never change in my fated ...
Every time is the same ending ...
Already bored of this all of thing ...
I have been triple kill by three of the people that i love most ...
Hahax ... And i trust most ...
Never mind that is my fated although i don believe fated at all ...
Never mind it just never mind ...

1st one who end up everything without telling anything ...
In that night ...
I cant stop calling the number ...
It just end up with the doo doo sound ...
At the other day i just know she have new guy already ...
Never mind Never mind at all ...

2nd one who end up in an unknown situation ...
I'm totally don know what she feel and what hurt her ...
Never mind i know she lost feeling but i din give up for that ...
Still at the end i don like to hurt a girl that i really love ...
Never mind Never mind so i just let her go ...
Anyway i already know who will be her next bf ...
Hahax I'm just a stupid guy ...

3rd one ...
Hahahax the most cruel one ...
Everything end up with no sound no call not even one msg from her ...
Why should I cry for since she have been so cruel to me ...
Every msg i send to her there is no reply ...
Why why why ...
Why you sms me today ...
Why you ask me 'why i din sms you so long?'
That is no point at all ...
Is you din reply me 1st ...
Maybe i don very love you ...
But do you know I'm really worry about you ???
And you end up with telling me you already have new bf !!!
What are you thinking ???
Killing my heart ???
Making me crazy ???
What the fuck you ...
Shit i just cant stop crying ...
I know I'm weak but that does not mean you cant hurt me whatever you want ...
I'm have my own feeling I have my own way of love ...
It just too painful ...
Maybe i just have to listen to my friend ...
That all the girl is just playing with me ...
Why should i love them with my true love ...
There is no point at all ...

I'm hurt enough ...
I'm just a loser in love ...
Enough for that all ...
I'm not ging to trust any gal easily ...
They all are so cruel ...
Or maybe is my luck too bad ...
That just my fault ...
Everything that i know not enough to love anyone ...
And not suit for anyone to love me ...
Enough I'm tired for now ...
Maybe i cant hate anyone ...
But i just want to be alone just like before ...
That all ...
I'm not going to run away just like that ...
Maybe I just take it as an experience that not everything i should trust easily ...
My wound wont recover ...
Just let it bleeding ...
That will remind me all of my failure ...
One day just one day i'll find the one who really love me ...
Or maybe i'll be the most cruel guy in the world...
Who play all the girl feeling ...
Hahax ... I know i wont be able to hurt anyone ...
That is me i scare to hurt someone ...
I'm scare to be alone ...
But why why all the thing end up with the sadness ...
With hurting my heart ...
I cant blame who ...
I just need to learn friom the past ...
I just need to learn to be strong ...
I trust all people have their good heart but that wrong ...
They have bad heart also ...
Sometime evil is greater than kind ...
Nothing i can say ...
No one i can trust ...
just let it to be the ned of this blog ...
My feeling is so hurt and down ...
Final love in my heart ...